I undertook my Sociology course at Sim University in the year 2006. It was divine intervention that made me take up Sociology.
Sociology has always been a subject close to my heart. I first cross roads with the subject when I was taking a Diploma in Economics in 2001 at Stansfield. At first, I was baffled with the subject. I did not understand anything that was going on. Even the debates that my fellow classmates were indulged in were Greek to me. I found myself in a Labyrinth.
I searched for somebody to help me understand the subject. I found help in a retired Sociologist lecturer. She opened my eyes to social happenings occurring in society that I had never noticed before. The seed of interest in Sociology was planted in me on that very day. However, I think the seed was planted long time ago but I never knew it, it was when I was around 6 years old. Whenever my dad took me out, he would always ask me to look around me and ask me to describe the behavior of people. I read my dad's psychology books. Actually, I preferred to looked at people’s behaviour collectively and not as an individual. I regarded studying an individual's behaviour to subjective.
I knew what I wanted to be in the future. Class did not become a bore anymore. On the record, I am the only one that passed the subject. I searched for a course that only catered to Sociology. Unfortunately, the only courses that catered to Sociology were conducted only at NUS and NTU. I was not eligible to go to these institutions.
Therefore, I gave up the idea of studying Sociology and took other courses. In 2005, my life hit a crises. I was at a total lost but the only person that made me carry on was Our Lady. Somehow she was making me live through my life eventhough I was facing many obstacles.
On one faithful Sunday, a course on being a youth leader was announced in church. At once something in me told me to join the course. I was very reluctant. However, a voice kept disturbing me by telling me to join the course. It went on for a week until I could not take it anymore and decided to join. Only then did the voice stop disturbing me.
I never regretted joining the course because it was at the course that I found my life back and the life I was suppose to lead. An aspiring and powerful priest helped me to find my life back. During the prays, God spoke to me. He told me that my purpose on earth was to make known the inequalities and sufferings that society was facing. I asked him how in heaven’s name am I suppose to accomplish the task he asked me to do.
The answer came to me when I went home. Strangely, a sociology textbook which I have not read for 4 years laid on my bed. I opened the book and started reading it. I could not put the book down. Suddenly, my interest in Sociology was rekindled. I knew how to go about accomplishing the task he asked me to do, however, there was another question. How am I going to specialize in Sociology? If anybody was to publish my writings, I needed to be somebody who had good Sociology credentials. I decided to search on the internet to see whether there were any schools that were conducting Sociology courses besides NUS and NTU. Truth behold, SIM University was going to conduct a degree course in Sociology. I instantly jumped at the opportunity.
It has already been three years since I have been studying the subject. I totally immersed myself in the subject as a result I have become the subject itself. It actually changed my life because nowadays whenever people speak to me or whenever I view my surroundings, I start to analyze and evaluate them. I wonder whether it is a blessing or a curse. I have yet to find the answer.
This behavior of mine has not met with favorable response. People have told me that I have stopped being a human. Not everything in life needs analyzing and evaluating. That I have to separate what I have been trained for in order to communicate with other people. That I always impose my will on others and never listen to them. I am trying to correct these problems but find it very difficult to do so because I cannot see the problems myself. For all I know, I do listen to people and try to understand where they are coming from and then I give my opinion. Maybe it is because I refuse to bulge from my opinion but then again I do give in also. I am really at a crossroads because I really do want to interact with people and improve relationships with them.
I am still not giving up hope in improving my relationships with others. I am also very determine to accomplish the task God set for me. I can only now pray to Our lady to help me have a better life and also help me to be more human and understanding. On this note, I wish everybody Happy Easter!!!
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